What the Ohio State Marching Band is teaching me about obedience

I trust you, too, have sat in front of TV screen or computer monitor, or best case scnario, high above the 50 yard line at the Horseshow Stadium and watched with mouth agape as the Ohio State Marching Band has reinvented the half-time show. I mean...what on astroturf? What on artificial grass is happening down there? Because from where I sit, it ain't your pro-forma conga line of tubas playing their cheeks off to "Hang on Sloopy."

Last week it was Michael Jackson moonwalking.

This week it was Superman, Harry Potter taking flight and a freaking T-Rex going all prehistoric predator on some poor bando.

Total insanity under a chin-strapped hat is what that is.

And I could go on about all the other great things to come out of Ohio, like Thomas Edison and Mead notebooks and the word "treelawn." But I am thinking today less as a native Ohioan and more as a journalist. How are they doing that? How are they doing things that only the Chinese can do at the Olympics opening games? Is it a computer software that figures this out? And why is this hokey art form suddenly elevated, like the Cirque du Soleil of marching bands?

Does anybody care? Because everyone from the Today Show to the L.A. Times is just sort of standing aghast at this performance art on a football field. Like, Oh hey, did you see this? Because if not, here's the Youtube. We're going to take a break from asking questions and just stand awestruck for a minute and wonder what is going to come out of Columbus, Ohio next week.

There is plenty of room in this world for real spectacle, for technical marvels that require such precision, such calculation it's unfathomable.

As someone with a penchant for spontaneity, though, these art forms, these technical marvels are so beyond my realm of comprehension. I can barely make it to work on time 5 days a week IN A ROW. I cannot think about making sure I am standing at the right 45 degree angle in a stiff polyester uniform while holding up my trombone just so and piping out the appointed note in alignment with a whole fleet of people doing the same.

This is what is most marvelous to me about the Ohio State marching band: they can't see what we see. The musicians know their marching orders, and that is all. The artists don't hear what we hear, they don't see what we see. They don't see the canvas as they are painting it. They only know that if they follow these directions, and they trust that if everybody else does, their formation will astound. All the while, they are keeping the beat, marching in place, now moving this way, now making a scatter plot of people to obscure the formation and now, BOOM, is that Clark Kent changing in a phone booth? Un.Be.Liev.Able.

So goes the call to obedience. We don't know at any moment why we are given certain orders. We don't know why we are told to move clear across the field. We don't understand why it appears everyone else is moving forward and we are the ones just looking the fool, tooting our flute to the beat, marching in one place. We can't see the big picture, we can't step out of our lives and see this whole band marching in one accord.

Rare are the moments when we feel we are apart of something larger than ourselves. Even rarer are the moments when we hear the whoops and cheers from the stands, OMG THIS IS CRAY CRAY! But those moments somehow make following those marching orders, all those rehearsals, all that sweat equity so so worth it. Am I right?

Studio 4109

I got to do something fun last night. Epically fun by my weekend standards (see also: will I rearrange the pantry? Or will it be my sock drawer again?). I got to host an SNL-type show on campus. With a bunch of sweet, talented little cupcakes, who are also full-time college students.

Ah, 'twas so good to my soul.

Something about being back with the thespian-types. Goofy and spontaneous-like. I love the camaraderie, the encouragement, where the only competition is who gets to make the biggest blooper in front of the biggest audience.

I used to think all those things that people think about people who do theatre: how they're all shallow narcissists who can't connect with their own identity so they have to borrow ones that someone else wrote.

But the business of theater, the actual getting-down-to-the-studs exercise of performing live on stage with a bunch of other flawed humans, is one of the most edifying experiences. Rather than putting on someone else for a little while, one grows more into himself and herself. Certain unexpecteds emerge, certain trills in voices, certain resistances to making ugly faces, and one learns and grows and trusts a great deal.

I hearted last night a whole bunch.

studio4109

photocredit Studio 4109

15 Year HS Reunion - In absentia

My old man texted me that I should come home this coming weekend since it's my 15 year high school reunion. That made me sad on a whole lot of levels, not least because I wish I could go "home" and see my parents more regularly. And also, because my plans for this weekend most likely include drawing a lot of robot princesses, reading beat report assignments, or stalking preying mantises in our front yard. I made some really lovely friends in high school, so I'm sad to miss the reunion. Because social media has killed the need for an actual catch-up, I think reunions are less about comparing notes about what you have done in the years since you graduated, and more about the layers you have shed in the interim.

For example, the person I was in high school was basically a shell of a teenager with a deep sadness that she stuffed way down, masked by a bright smile and a constant busy-ness that would distract her from the sadness.

So, in lieu of my physical presence, here I am 15 years later.

And here are 15 things I am no longer:

1. I am no longer a person who thinks the Pope is the boss of the applesauce.

2. I no longer weigh 83 lbs. 1997

3. I no longer think an L.L. Bean barn coat is the height of fashion.

1995

4. I no longer fall asleep teary-eyed listening to Tori Amos' "Little Earthquakes" on my cassette walkman.

5. I no longer subscribe to the National Right-to-Life newsletter.

6. I no longer travel by RTA bus to get home.

7. I no longer spend my Friday nights standing on metal bleachers at Lakewood McKinley stadium.

8. I no longer wring my hands so my knuckles are completely white when I stand next to a 16 year-old boy.

weekendra_Page_7

9. I no longer think it is okay for me to not have bangs.

10. I no longer pray the rosary once/week.

11. I no longer am a dues-paying member of Kiwanis International.

12. I no longer use the word "random" to describe pretty much everything.

weekendra_Page_5

13. I no longer go without makeup.

kendra mags

14. I no longer study or read things that do not interest me. Like Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, for example.

kendrahighschoolgrad

15. I no longer own these shoes.

weekendra_Page_6

Wishing my Magnifi-sisters a really happy reunion this weekend!